You have shown me the calling upon my life, and I am thankful that You have allowed me to experience and see just how amazing it is.
The road to becoming a nurse is and will be tough, but each and everyday I see little things that will make it all worth it.
Someday God will lead me to my Prince Charming and we can do cheesy cute things together :)
Through all this fog, God’s light will shine and lead me though I can’t see where I’m headed.
He has His plans for me, and I must let Him lead.
I want to go adventuring over spring break and try things I’ve never done before. Such as day trip to Canada with friends, going to Alki Beach and Discovery Park, getting lost in Seattle and seeing all the cool stuff, trying a bunch of new cafe’s, restaurants or any new kinds of food. Pretty much, I just want new experiences :)
What a horrible ending to such a perfect day.
For there is none upon the earth
That I desire before you, Lord.
For You’ve been faithful all my days.
Your love endures; it will never fade away.
You’re everything I ever wanted,
Everything I ever needed.
It’s all so surreal. I keep wanting to feel like its all a dream, and that I’ll wake up tomorrow morning and he’ll say “just kidding!”. But I know it’s not, and he won’t. I just don’t want to believe it.
It’s weird how no matter how much you think you care about someone and how much they’ve impacted your life, you can never fully grasp the idea until they’re gone. You wish that you could relive those last few moments with them, and make sure they knew you loved them, and those moments were worth their time. After all, life is short. Each moment should be lived to the fullest and not taken advantage of.
Now, after the death of four people in the past three months, I realize the importance of making each moment count because you never know when it may be your last with them. And no matter how cliche it sounds, it’s completely true.
While the past few months have been difficult to deal with, I find peace in the fact that they are whole. They are in heaven with our father. It may be hard now, but we will be reunited in complete perfection some day. I can hold on to that and come to terms with tragedy, and live my life.
My 항만이, Jackie, Drake, and Richard may be physically gone, but their memories will be forever engraved on my heart, and their spirit will live on until that day we can meet again in heaven.
Say hello to God for me, and watch over us. See you soon, I love and miss you dearly; always.
I really believe that I’m too sentimental about things. Not always a bad thing, but definitely a cause for more pain, tears, and sadness in my life. Oftentimes, it becomes a burden I’m not prepared to handle.
You’ve received the best gift of all for Christmas this year. You get to be with God now, and for eternity. It’s bittersweet and I’ll miss you, but I know you’re whole now and with the one who created everything. None of us would be here without Him. I guess I should actually be jealous you got to meet him so soon! Say hi to Him for me and watch over us. I’ll be sure to watch over your brother. Hope you had a wonderful first Christmas with God, and see you soon.